Friday 13th

[Bobo]

Shit. I was walking up some stairs this morning, when the right side of my hip sort of snapped and the pain was out-of-this-world. I didn't run, carry something or even stumble, it simply just snapped like someone would have shot me or something. I've been running in the forests, jumping over things... carrying heavy loads, sweating in the gym... without any problems, and then today my fuckin' leg just snaps when walking!? What the hell?! Nothing wrong with the bones or stuff, but something broke in there and the pain is killing me, and I have to walk around with sticks (or whatever they're called... those elbow-thingys anyway). Got some expensive painkillers that makes me tired as hell, but the pain is still there. Friday 13th... I'm not superstitious, but this was weird as hell. If some fuckin' spirit is messing with Bobo, it will regret it when I get my revenge. Fuck this shit!!! :x

[Spike]

LOL


Not funny though - but it sounds like a Monty Python sketch.

[Godma]

Crutches.

[Bobo]

Yeah, crutches. :x

[Dong_Johnson]

Looks like fatigue has been chipping away at your hip throughout all those strenuous activities. It happens in bone and muscle the same as it does in metals and stuff!
Oh and get it checked properly ASAP! you don't want a bad hip! i've seen the procedure to fix them and it ain't pretty!

[Bobo]

I did see a doctor today, and there shouldn't be anything too badly wrong. I hope it gets well soon.

[Dong_Johnson]

Glad to hear that, good luck healing

[Bobo]

Thanks. Feeling better already. :cool

[soserious]

hey Bobo, that sounds really shitty for you :(

hmm, hopefully things will work out well.
which hip?

i know hip pain is no joke- i had my whole hip rebuilt.

are you taking any joint stuff? or anything for musces?whats your vitamin e intake?
i know you know this stuff, but still its good to make an occassional mental checklist of whats going into your body and what it might need.

hmm.

oh yeah, btw i saw again on that ray mears thing- they made like a special tar out of the pinewood (i think pine) in the swedish forest, he said it smelled really good- it reminded me of when you were talking about that alcohol? drink that reminded you of a special tar.

anyway, hope your body heals well and soon.
but still you have put/ been put under immense pressure over the last few years yes? so that alone can have unexpected influences on your body.

take care,

ss

[Bobo]

Thanks, SS. It's my right side, quite painful but nothing too serious. Feels alot better already... I do eat more than enough vitamins + other joint stuff, so that's not the reason. Actually, it isn't the joint that hurts, it's a muscle or something in that area... the actual joint is ok, only it hurts when I move the joint. Bobo will be ok, no problem.

That tar-thingy: You now know what I was talking about. :cool

[Bobo]

I hate being the one always whining and feeling sorry for myself, but something is definately wrong. I don't really care what You guys think of this, but it helps me to talk about it, I'm not expecting any answers. I have lost all my energy, period. I'm not interested in anything, my "dream job" means nothing to me anymore, everything has sort of lost its magic. I guess I'm depressed or something, but that's a bit weird because I've already been eating strong anti-depressants for four months in a row. Those "pills of happiness" should keep me on track now when my batteries are empty, balance my serotonine levels, but for some reason they have no effect on me. The pills are top quality, best ones on the market, expensive as hell... and my dosage is already higher than regular. The usual dose is 15mg daily, and for more serious cases it's 30mg (my dosage)... and the highest dosage of 45mg is very rare and is used only on very serious cases. WTF? I'm not crazy or anything, but something has sucked all my energy away. The gravity is 2-3x stronger than normal (the way it feels), and nothing makes me laugh or cry these days. I'm sort of numb or something... even the food has no taste anymore. WTF is wrong with me? Sorry for whining again, but this is all I know at the moment, I'm a total mess. I'm going to see my doctor next week, and I hope he has some answers. I have never experienced anything like this before... like there would be some sort of glass wall between me and everything else, absorbing part of all voices, colours and smells... keeping the outside world out of my reach. Weird shit... :x

[Valk]

I have exactly the same thing Bobo.
For the last view months I'm not feeling anything anymore. I'm completely numb. Ok thats not exactly true. I'm completely numb during daytime and the nights are an emotional rollercoaster. Anger, frustration, sadness come all out at once.
Numbness for me is the worst feeling in the world. I can deal with pain and frustration but dont know what do about that numbness.

Dont trust doctors Bobo. I broke my leg once, and they put it back all wrong. :x :(

[Spike]

Just checking in for my daily dose of Schardenfreude - keep up the good work. :lol:

[Valk]

Damn you Spike!! Its schadenfreude without the R! :x :x

[Bobo]

You mean some sort of "Jerry Springer" -type of entertainment, Spike? I'm glad I could help.

[Shane_Bos]

Would a psychiatrist help? They might be able to pinpoint whatevers getting you down and leave you to fix it. Itll be like telling some one what you've just told us, only a bit more expensive but with a bit more helpfulness. Theyre experts in this shit, just a suggestion though. Hope you feel better, welcome back btw Bobo :D

[soserious]

Bobo, first off i know you are normally the cool, calm and collected logical and scientific guy who thinks things through-so "whining" feels odd and wrong for yu to do but its not. its ok, with all the things messing with you you gotta have somewhere to let fly some confusion and anger ect.

Bobo, its just mho, but i know that some of those pills can actually "numb" you and your senses- some are more like sedatives.
perhaps thats something you should look into, and use a little of SERIOUS logic ;) (aka- ASSUME that the pills are messing with ya AND that its based on money for the health/docs to make) you never know, it could be so.

and yes, i gathered that it wasnt bone but rather muscle or some connective tissue, still though.

Bobo, ive said it before and i`ll say it again: i think you need some fresh air, some fresh sights sounds and smells and a change of thoughts subsequently. i could be wrong but this is just my personal feelings.

i hopefully am going away myself very soon (im happy cos its exciting- im sad cos im skint and unprepared :lol: :roll: ) but yeah, running in the woods is great, but perhaps you need smething else entirely.
aas with many of the guys on here- some not on here these days- i have a lot of respect for you and truly care about you very much to the point that during my days away from CC i think about and wonder how some of y`all are doing and hoping its well. id be gutted , devestated if anything majorly bad happened and likewise i feel for you when youre upset, angry or just realloy feeling withdrawn.

so you know what? keep talking, explore what might be the remedie/s, maybe its something simple, maybe its your whole life, maybe its something in the "expensive top quality pills" ect.

from what youve talked about here at CC i canimagine a whole bunjch of shit that might be gnawing away at you inside, perhaps even subconciously.

but yeah, keep striving, adapt, overcome.

luv ya!
ss

[Spike]

Damn you Spike!! Its schadenfreude without the R! :x :x

Danker Mein Herr. :D

[Clockers]

I think we all get depressed here and there' i know i have, and i hate it aswell it just plain sucks. :x So for that i hope the best for you my friend cause i don't know what eles to tell you or anybody who is depressed,, i get it time to time and some'times it's really bad. :cool

[Dong_Johnson]

Hey Bobo out of curiosity could those daily doses of L-arginine and Ornithine supplements be the culprits for weakening your hip joints ? ? check with the doc

[Bobo]

Thanks all, nice to see some of You really care. I will look into this matter because something is definately wrong. I'm one of those whos energy never runs out, one of those who keep themselves and everyone around them on track... until recently I can't support myself and definately not others. I have changed dramatically during one year, and I'm not even a shadow of what I used to be. At the moment I'm helpless... I have no idea how to proceed. I know I should see a pro, but to find someone who can understand something as complicated as I am, it isn't easy (been there, done that). Now when I've lost it all, I realize how much I used to have.... didn't see it back then.

[Shane_Bos]

Maybe you've spent so long supporting others, you neglected yourself. Good luck with whatever you decide Bobo.

[Bobo]

The leg is healed. Amazing really, thinking I was still limping with it yesterday. Today the pain was totally gone, and I went to the gym... nothing wrong with the leg anymore. It must have been some sort of nerve problem or an infection, nothing else can heal this quickly... or the L-Arginine is really working wonders with tissue healing. I will return the crutches to the hospital tomorrow. :cool

[Dong_Johnson]

That great news for you, maybe it was just a really bad cramp?

[Bobo]

Maybe... it was sore as hell for four days, but now it's gone. :mrgreen

[Clockers]

Glad your leg is better. :cool

[BIGOKE]

You need to go and have a ball in the West Indies or the Bahamas. If you decide to go please take me with you. :lol: